rest in peace, david carradine.

ahhh, bill.
you will be missed.

*here's to you.

holy mother lover

i need these shoes.
yes ... desperately.


p.s.
please forgive me for all the materialistic posts.
i just really like shoes.

ok .. so i've been daydreaming a lot.

i'll be the first to admit that.
but seriously ... have you ever seen such a heavenly dress?
of course, the photographer is amazing, too ..
but gahh ... i'd love to get married in this dress.

to be free

(jenna carver is.)

quote for the day!

"Most of us are about as happy as we make our minds up to be."

- President Abraham Lincoln

(photo found here.)

i dream of kitchens.

i think i'm in love with every fantastic detail in this kitchen.
this is the kitchen of my dreams.

spontaneous decisions and secrets.

i figured i should tell you about my little secret.

i've kept you waiting long enough!
for one, i'm not good at keeping secrets.
and secondly, it's happening very soon
(so even if i was good at keeping secrets,
i'd have to tell you in like, 2 days).

justin and i are moving out of new york city.
yup.
that's right.
goodbye, sweet concrete jungle.
goodbye central park ... goodbye horse-drawn carriages ...
goodbye street art & performers ...goodbye fancy stores ...
and goodbye street vendors.
you've all been good to me.

maybe i should start at the beginning ...?

well, it was kind-of hard for me when i first moved here.
let's face it - i grew up in a town that was not even on the map.
a town so small, if you were to blink while you were driving by, you might miss it.
you might think ... wouldn't that make you happy to get the hell out of there!?

well. yes and no.

but when i finally moved to new york city,
i think i was in a bit over my head.
it took me a few months to really crawl out of my shell.
learning something like the subway routes (which might be a simple task for most) was really difficult for me.
i was used to my car.
and being safe.
and not putting myself out there like that.
well, i'm pleased to tell you that now i feel confident to go almost anywhere in the city by myself.
now that is a personal accomplishment.

i've experienced both the good and the bad here.
and i think it's made me a better person for it.

so ... you might be wondering where i'm headed?
home.
and by home, i mean wisconsin.

justin and i have made the decision to move in with my mom.
there are various reasons why (that i prefer not to divulge on this blog),
but i will tell you that i am very excited!

my mom and i have already come up with a few ideas for road trips
(hellloo, nashville!).

when i first left home,
i was an angry, 18 year old girl ..
perhaps viciously lashing out in the wrong ways,
but here i am now.

i've got 1 year and 2 months of city life and experience under my belt
and i feel really good about going home.

it's funny, because i always thought that if i ever went back home (to wisconsin),
it would be out of guilt (for moving away from my family)
or .. the dreaded, "i ran out of money."
not so.
the truth is, i want to go.

in my head, i decided that i want to go for me -
because it's what i want!

so ... there you have it, folks!
it's official.
and i am very happy.

(the photo is a picture of me, taken in my mom's backyard last summer - beautiful weather!)